So you want
to take me back to a place I don’t go any more. So many things happened. All
the money I had saved and put into the store was gone. We kept praying for things
to change. We were always behind on our rents for the store and home. One day,
the sheriff came and gave us ten minutes to take what we needed and evicted us
from our home.
My dad
rented a place for us. Our rent was always late. The sheriff came again. We
were evicted again. We slept in the store until a friend sublet a place for us.
Our rent was always late again and we
got eviction notices again. Now things got worse. We couldn’t pay our phone
bills and the phone service was cut off and I couldn’t sleep at night. I went
to the doctor and asked for sleeping pills.
With
everything going on, my husband was having an affair. I used to think it was
just the two of us. I thought he loved me. I felt sad, used, embarrassed and hurt.
I thought people saw me as being stupid. I cried all the time. Then, one morning,
I was very sad. My husband went to the store, my six-year-old son was in the
living room and I was in the bedroom. I felt I couldn’t live anymore. I took
the sleeping pills. My son couldn’t wake me up. He went to a neighbor who
called 911. The ambulance took me to the hospital and the pills were pumped from
my body. I awoke in the hospital. I left my husband and went to live in a women’s
shelter.
I wasn’t thinking of my son. I would never do that to him again. I was
young and stupid.
===============An Interview - A parent facing financial stress and marital problems
You can check out Dese'Rae's blog, she focuses on people who have attempted sucide. Here's the link: Live Through This
Here's a Wikipedia link for help http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines - LINK
Here is the suicide prevention line for the US - 1 800 273 - 8255
